14 feb 2008 (valentines day)

It is valentines day... why do i feel even more sore then usual... well this girl i love is going with another guy..... haix... sob sob

but what really breaks my heart the most the guy is ALREADY married.....i mean ..... WAH lao..... then some more then i talked to her ( we were close friends... pls note i used the word WERE. ) she told me the reason why she likes him....

she said becus when she was sick he came over to her house and and he visited her and he treat her so good lah he took care of her lah blah blah............ wah lao.... U KNOW HOW HEART BREAKING TO HEAR THAT FROM U A NOT?!!??!? I MEAN COME ON... I DID THE SAME THINGS FOR HER WHEN SHE WAS SICK......................................... I WAS THERE I TREATED HER THE SAME WAY............................... seriously this dun add up.

somemore that time she told me she was not ready to get into any relationships. then of course i waited lor.... i did not tell her then how much i felt for her... we stayed as close friends.... then one day she told me about the bomb shell that she kissed Ron ( thats the name of the guy ) and started seeing him.......... it really devastated my heart man... u had not idea how heart breaking it was.

Yes Ron's wife was suspecting about the affair... but she believing ron when ron told her that there was nothing happening.... man i really pity the wife.. not knowing what is actually going on... i hate guyz who cheat on their girlfriends / wives.

everytime i know her heart is with him... it is worst then having a shotgun blowing your heart into pieces. I mean the pain REALLY DO come for your heart........... weird huh?

right now something happened i dunno what.... she and me are no longer talking....... i dun think i will talk to her bah until the day she decides to talk to me..... i bet u that day will never come. she says she will talk to me still if i never find her... lets put that to the test shall we? i can bet u with all my life she will never come find me... at all... anymore........ man i really wish i could i just physically rip my own heart out .... it really hurts

Why i hate Valentines day so much

Come on everywhere u go u see are couples with flowers / chocolates / bears / being together with their special someone.... then u look at yourself... boh simi girl friend..... aiyo....... come on lah i mean...Zzzz i see i also du lan....

yayaya your all saying i am a loser izzit? dun have girl friend..... pls lah... there are a few things i look in a relationship....

1. I must love her and she will love me back.

2. She must be truth to me at all times and hide NOTHING from me... ( of course i will do the same to her duhz )

3. she and i must be 100% or loyal to each other... i mean whats the point of breaking up with girl after girl after girl over and over again.. whats the point???? actually it is quite sad.... seeing guyz / girls change thier partner everytime. I mean they change thier boy/girlfriends more then i change my house pet bird's cage droppings lor.

the other thing i hate valentines day is the fact nothing ever goes right........ it never does.... and when something does..... 5 secs later a dagger pierce your heart when u see a girl with a guy or whatever on valentines day when u... boh dun have...... -.-

Regarding my Earlier posts past this

The posts that are earlier then this posts are all my school work.... the rest above it it all my problems i have i am just throwing out... best part... non of my friends know about this blog... hehehe.... they will never get to read it.... unless i allow it to happen.......